All organisms huddle near the center—it’s safer there. We worship genius and tell our kids to be normal.
Lately I’ve felt crippled by comparison — a personal trait I stand in staunch opposition to.
Someday I’ll feel comfortable in my own skin again. Drinking provided a sticky cloak that made me feel impervious…now I feel naked & exposed without it.
But deep down I know that this is merely a temporary by-product of a) my environment and b) my age. Hopefully in 5 years I’ll be in a different place physically and emotionally.
Meantime: sobriety, zen, & pushing the past the edges of my comfort zone is where my focus will lie. Or at least I’ll keep telling myself this until it becomes true, because that’s really all there is to do.