Challenged day-in day-out at work. Learning a lot about how personal biases tend to creep into professional environments that are smaller / less bound by bureaucracy (we don’t have a single “human resources” staffer in the building) . There is only a certain degree of power any one individual can have, and in their own way everyone is jockeying to leverage their modicum over others. Sometimes for professional reasons (because there are finite resources); sometimes for personal ones (because who knows? see prior posting: Two Sides for more on that).
It’s exhausting and petty at times, and frustrates me endlessly when office politics take time and energy away from me just trying to do my damn job…but that’s all part of The Great Human Experiment, inn’t? Life would be dreadfully boring if people were all polite and predictable. I eagerly await the point in my career where I’m giving orders more often than I’m taking them, but just as in early sobriety: time takes time. Grateful to have the rapport that I do with with friends and family, so I don’t feel obligated to invest in forced relations to find emotional fulfillment.