We’ve been through a lot, you and I. Literally and figuratively. Statistically, a gross percentage of people in the world won’t make it to this point in time in their lives, let alone to our (sweepingly) general level of socio-economic comfort. But we have made it here.
Putting that in context of the bigger picture here, we are the product of 4 billion years of evolutionary success. The odds that each of us are simultaneously existing and interacting with each other are nothing short of astronomical…yet here we are. Sometimes I forget about just how I (you know, the royal “we”) have come along that trajectory.
Taking that into consideration, I’m glad to simply be here today, right in the now. It makes me feel almost guilty, for all the luxuries afforded to me in life. This was something I pondered while in rehab: what really is essential to my survival? How much could I go without?
I was pleasantly surprised by the answer that came back to me. I would once have thought that aside from the basic necessities such as food/water/shelter, there were certain material possessions I could not go without, no matter what. The various devices that allow me to play back and enjoy music, for example.
The thought of going without would have once caused me great anxiety. But why? So what? Spending a good month with little to no external stimuli really forces you to focus on the internal/inherent facets of life that are needed for survival. I’ve realized that using any of those stimuli is a form of seeking inner validation through external means – and no matter how big or grand the spoils, true inner peace can only come from one place.
I have started down the path to attaining this peace. My trail is difficult at first, because there is so much baggage in tow. But as I forage onward, I let go of more and more of it, and the way becomes easier to navigate. Because I have survived; because I will survive.
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[Ed. note: I have set an alert on my phone for these weekly gratitude posts, so from here on out they should be published on Sundays, as they were meant to be.]