“We’re gonna have a good day!”
When faced with the (sometimes insurmountable) day-to-day hardships that are inherent in lifelong recovery, it is equally as important to cherish the small moments as it is to work through the big ones. I believe this to be true especially in early recovery. For some, giving up their drug or alcohol of choice is comparable to losing a good friend. While in rehab I actually wrote a “goodbye letter” to my former, drinking self (which perhaps I’ll post in the future…). It can feel like an personal loss, putting you into an emotionally vulnerable state . So while reflecting on the day I had today, I was very glad to realize that no part of it was upsetting or tedious, and was in fact overly enjoyable and relaxing.
I slept in, and when I got up, felt a sense of satisfaction as I went to the post office to send some long-overdue music to a friend of mine I had met while working in Rochester;
Went to my A.A. meeting where only 5 other people showed up, which actually turned out to be a very progressive and intimate session;
Received an encouraging response from an old friend who I recently contacted and explained my situation to;
Decided to pop in my headphones and take a jog outside due to the pleasantly mild weather today;
If only my route were actually that picturesque…
Went to church with my mother and brother, and spent some time connecting with my Higher Power;
The Known Universe x Daft Punk
Came home to eat an awesome peppers/onions/mushrooms/pepperoni stuffed-crust pizza dinner with my family;
And finally, just spending the evening lounging and basking in the radiant comfort I had felt throughout the day.
The Dude Abides.
I am completely at ease with the world right now. I rarely, if ever, truly felt this way while I was drinking heavily. Life is good, and I’m just gonna keep living it, 24 hours at a time.
And now Jennifer Lawrence is hosting SNL. Perfect end to a relaxing, low-pressure day.